a piece. been a while.

inspired by a good friend of mine, a comrade, another nightingale. thanks syam.

the road he walks on,  contradicts with his smile,

the light he has on, countless times had he to burn himself under the shadow,

just so he gets through another maze,

just so he can speak again from one more scream.

the path he chose to embrace, could not yet for no clue for an answer to shed,

in the crowd, isolation blinds him, abandoned through his fragile glass window,

that land he often speaks of, both a garden of eden and an urban paradise,

is now slowly burried deep in the haze, later by the condemning concrete walls,

the keys to every great gate are slipping through his fingers,

his numb tamed fingers.

but last night, before my eyes i saw a knight,

with his still-burning dreams as the sharpest sword,

the only weapon his hands lay upon against all doubting thoughts,

that taunt him across day and night, by him and all the encountered fights,

he will not bow and surrender, will not be held down by the scared contenders,

to the end he shall march, on a white horse or black,

in the end we all shall see, where the ribbon will never be,

a winner that is well forged would become of him, definitely.

13.12.12

have you guys heard of the story, about a young lil boy who grew up into nothing?
mueheh he is still alive~ still breathing ;) unfortunately…
worry not, he deserves to be punished~ lolz
if i had power, i would have sent him away, to a damn place.
where he couldnt hurt others as how others couldnt hurt him as well.
finally, a happy ending huh? well that s a fairytale for ya ;D
im khalid arumi and i approve this message!

Spring Is In The Air

so lately, (by lately, i mean for months)
i ve been so freaking down, near to the point of breaking,
might as well already was shattered to bits lol
but nev mind~ everybody has his ups and downs
so it was one of those moments, in a way, glad it happened ;P

it is spring now here in OZ muahahahaha
well, it has been a while tho but whatev~
in canby, there is this annual event called Floriade :)

how beautiful ay? SubhanAllah! :{DD

kinda like a flower parade, showcase or some sheezs
but yeah it was lovely there :3
went there with Sis Ayu, joined by Iman, Ajim, Sis Iti, Loqman, Olivia and Amber~
didnt do much really but that was as attended anyway~
1st off, me n Sis Ayu had our brunch there, nachos and something from the 'middle easterners' like kebabs n stuffs~

rambut rosak T____T well i looked happy so what da eva~

soon after that, the other herd arrived haha~
too bad i dont have the picture of us altogether tho *sobsob*
well, we got on the effin ferris wheel which was pretty much a vivid nightmare to moi T__________T
i am not a height friendly creature...

at the peak of the ferris wheel~ look at those colorful ants walking around :3

so basically, all the flowers draw up some colorful top hats~
thank god this picture was taken cuz if it were not, i wouldnt know such creativity exists lol
i did open my eyes but instead, i inspected the cleanliness of the gondola's floor muehehehehheehheh didnt bother to look outside cuz of reasons~ :P

oh~ imagining the wheel suddenly stopped and one of the gondolas had a glitch n the super me climbing up to save the citizens~ thank you! thank youu!!

and after all of that, we just wandered around, each had an ice cream~ i had the Golden Gaytime for the 1st time lol a sign of me gettin old T____T cuz if it were the lil me, everytime a new ice cream is out, me n my brah will run to the stores to have our first taste n rate em up haha *the old days*

ouh, did something new tho at the festival~ i have always wanted to get face painted, ALWAYS! lol usually i see it being done on the movies n stuffs so, as we were walking i saw this awesome looking booth, with images/patterns/etc outside and dudeee, i half died inside (always exaggerating everything haha) aandd that happened!

"ROYAL BITCH! BOW DOWN"

there are some more of those stuffs on my forehead but yeah, not everything has to have reasons mueheh

wah, 1 MALAYSIA! a malay (me), a chinese, lets just assume (behind moi) and an indian (there~ thereee~~)

Simba puppet!!!!!

so after all of that, i wasnt really feeling well, probs just tired of the day but nowadays, i look pale as ever
oh n now, my skin has two hues lol skin-tanned baby~ 
so i guess that was it! ouh i bought this gorgeous lanterns n me iz loving it!!! mueheh :33

wondering how are YOU there though~ eventhough i laugh a lot, smile non-stop and work extra hard just to keep myself busy from feeling the aching pain, u are always there at the end of every fullstop. it is both comforting and suffocating. heh nev mind~ wish u joy, happiness, success, love and everything :) one more thing, i will never stop loving you, mocha.

bruised.

define home,
for me, it is supposed to be the safest place u ll ever feel to be in.

define love,
for me, it is when you'd rather pierce your own heart before his or her.

i know there are worst things that revolve around out there, to be compared, my laments are just me mumbling about things i might know less about. but what if i know the reasons better than them?

they talk about "stop judging people before anything" but instead, they betray their own words. as easy as one to just scream n shout, they make someone their stringed toy n throw whatever it is on their minds. the uglier the words, the funnier the jokes.

so if this gripping black hole stays the same, i'll have to find my own sanctuary because i won't stop believing, that there is something out there meant for me.

messy.

aloha humans n non-humans~

arryte straight to d point without any puns n sheezs
i am officially a paranoid bitch :')
lol d story is, over here it s getting colder n colder by days,
n somehow this bothers me a lot haha mybe cuz it s only autumn now, winter is on its way (just imagine what it is like during the supposed-to-be-the-only-cold-season :O)
n this issue haunted me even till my eyes were closed, i dreamt about it recently :O
like how it is, d blue pale skin, shivering n what not haha too much exaggerations in that freezing dream T____T
n then, otha thing is concerning muh rabbits
this thought of me being a good master always plays around arryte
sometimes i feel like, im d worst carer of all, got me spending a lot tho on their foods, bedding n more foods but still, the same thing happened, followed me into my dream ystrday
it s hazy now but as far as i could rmmber, i was at this shopping mall
i think it was IKEA, back in malaysia :P so yeahh, somebody scolded me cuz magically, muh rabbits were there, hopping their mischievous asses off n things were moving so fast n next thing i knew, my female rabbit was (i think) kicked by me (OH NOO!) n d male rabbit was bleeding on its neck
n again, outta nowhere, two alright cages awesomely appeared, n my female rabbit was in there, lying down, looking extra weak n dirrty T_______T hazy, hazy for a while n still seeing my weak female rabbit there n i thought it was dead n (magically, again) a drinking pet bottle popped up in my hands n so i fed her n to my surprise, she drank it all up within seconds n regained her strength n BBOOOMMM! that was it :P btw, didnkno where dafuq muh otha rabbit disappear into lol sneaky little tasty meal..
omagad these stuffs r driving me cray crayy with the aid of my college's demands *dancingdancing*
n talking about college, we are about to work on our final project n it is damn hard
have to come up with "original" ideas n blablablahh n it has to be able to fit into a milk carton so that hints us that our projects have to be technically made up that it could shrink and enlarge to two awesome but in different-sizes things *__________*
just wish me luck o earth citizens, as i need it.. or a miracle~ dangg that would be awesome...

here to stay

greetings~ :{D
well, it has been a week now im here
things are still blurry for me but yeah, they ll change later~
i hope so :P

in the plane biatchaass~ XD

juz wanna type in the highlights so far. at least for me they are :P
12 in the midnight, on 20th of jan, im officially an 18 Y/O but it didnt go as sweet as it supposed to be though
i cried in my bed cuz i was pretty much alone~ me and dad, we are not one of those close companions, and yeah~ like, i felt all lonely, quiet and cold :| plus im somewhere new, a stranger, an outsider~
well it has always been like this actually haha but for this exact moment, i dunno :O n the night after, my dad with his "brilliant idea", invited his friends to clbrte my bday at this new home.
but the sad thing was, when they were singing the HB song, got to the part where we mention the bday boy/gal's name ayy? and i think just the 3 or 4 of them who knew my name at the time n others were like "blah blaa blaahhh, hahhahhaha" =,= in a way, it is funny but it saddens as well, to me i mean T______T bt yeah, the night went on arryte i reckon~
n the otha past days, did nothing really, went shopping once~ babysat someone's children who i think for now, are my close friends =,= pffthhhhh~ i mean, how sad is that really? not to be mean n what not but yeahh, an 18 yrs old boy befriends with lil kidos, only? haha n now, all i m waiting for is to start off my Cert III at Canberra Institute of Technology later~ orientation is one the 2nd of feb and on the 6th is the official first day, insyaAllah ;)

la tahzan

*i typed this entry on the 17th of jan but didn't really post it, reason= nothing*
17th of january, 0340, still up doing nothing
just thinking :) tomorrow, 18th of january, i ll be leaving msia
joining my daddy there, btw i ve received my offer letter
alhamdulillah i got the course i wanted, it s about arts~

me at klcc, forever alone :P

but two things for sure, i ll be missing everything here
and discovering many things there, back in aussie babehh!
people hve been asking, "mesti sedih kan na pindah?" "so cane rase na blah dah?" =,= despite the sweet rudeness,, eventhough im used to moving, but that melancholic sadness always knocks on my window, and at the same time, it s exciting, why the hell wouldnt it b aite? scary, anxious, "alone" and stuffs~
homaii, rasanya smpai k pagi ah ye berjaga neh, wait, dah pagi laaa~ apalah awak ni.. :{D

spm n afterwards

what a phase has it been :) haha i have just finished my SPM!!! btw it is the biggest exam as a high school student here in malaysia~
i kinda use all the roads i had been walking thru, all the subjects that were confusing, hard to the hell and some were loved, favored as an excuse to sorta abandon-for-a-while this blog of mine :P
i can say that i am relieved now :) like finally, im outta school, which i d been longing for agess! XP people said that we will miss our schools after we are long gone, stepped into adulthood and blablahh but to think of it, i dun think i m gonna feel that much of that melancholic sadness because my family is one of those nomads :3 so i had never really strongly bonded with one particular place or people cuz yeah, it kinda annoys me when u re about to laugh and rock hard with a new atmosphere, another one is introduced and everything has to start all over again =,= but i can say i have accepted the fact and somehow embraced it :P from one view, it s kinda fun right? and in contrast, it hurts everytime as much as it hurts the first time

by now, most of my friends know imma fly back to aussie by january 2012, mid or so (another moving)
i juz wish i could stay a bit longer here, but yeah, life goes on~
wanna thank my happy tree family: the boys (howthe, qayyum, kee ian) and the gals (sabri, zati, maggie, hwee sun) for the memories :P my otha 5 Cemp classmates, friends of menjalara, i ll remember u guys~ my Don's, Azim, Ray and Adam <3 i love you bitchess~ and i mean it with all my heart haha i dunno why im making such a drama atm but yeah, in case we couldnt see each otha again before my flight, juz wantchu guys to know how thankful i am towards the acceptance :))) well, cheers for the future then! muahahahaha

rudiculous prose

hihohiho been away for so longg~ other than laziness, busy occupies my attention :P well, what have changed are, my hair, my new tude, umm, schedule,, i dunno~ a lot has changed ahah well, i love changing but yeah, to one perspective, good or bad, the hell with it~
but the right word is, experimenting~ when we are young, we are searching for the best of us, to be the best of us
so yeah, everyone is entitled to his opinion, being different sets different hues~ whatever pattern it creates, colorful is us~
hoho yupp, in case u re wondering, i do talk like this sometimes, weird or plain, everyone has those sides :))
lately, i ve been thinking, should i study science subjects which is my weak area and the lame news is, SPM is nearing T___T just saying, if i ace those subs, ......okay, this part is confidential :P LOL
but yeah, i have my own reason and trust me, this is the best for my life, need not to give me advices on study study study and otha blahh's


wish i could change my parents' decision though, or at least delay or so~ i aint ready for this! warrghhhh
okaylahhhh, penat mengarott =,=" esok ta nak sekolah, cheq malasss! hoho xoxo

*proud to be an apple user, rest in peace Steve Jobs :'))

folio seni

 "tak pernah ku sangka, sedalam ini rasaku padamu"

-Di Mana Di Mana by 3 Suara (Ning, Shila, Jac)

first of all, merry ramadhan~ haha cheers! blablabla
=,= *mcm tak ikhlas jopee haha nev mind~
so yeah, talking bout spm, i added visual arts edu to my stream
n it is a must to all of us, "artists" to work on an assignment~
been spending months though on this stoohpid folio, cuz it is considered as after-hours subject, (in my case) i have to learn arts on my own since no one has the time to teach me T__T but this is aint a lament tho, dun gemme wrong, i am sorta fine with that but of course, it would come in extra handy if any human or anything out there who would wanna be my guide willingly (no cash related) 
hoho *hwaiting!!!!
i chose question 6, it is about packaging for chips
in the first place, i wanted to do question on sculpture, but yeah, time wasnt a friend, so i had to change my mind
some instructions are like, the out-of-nowhere-company's product goes by "SUCI" (sounds like a detergent name, like Breeze, Dynamo, etc), final result, an actual result, like a prototype, has to be 30 cm tall, a collection of fonts, examples of packages, etc~
so yeah, i captured some of my works, finger-crossed, hope for an A+ :33 *cikgu dgr tak cikgu? haha

my cover page~ *mind my horrifying writings =,=

 the contents~ *once again, mind my writings

2nd page

example of cassava aka ubi kayu

"sexy sells" haha

the question is: how does the product function/how is the product being used

tools that i use during the process~

that is all i guess, i forgot to snap the actual result, but yeah, it resembles my drawings and the measurements are correct
*thank you GOD :33 so yeahh, this is what kept me busy nowadays, since a number of my FB friends has asked, where have i been n stuffs~ *prihatin jugak uolls dgn beta yeah? haha xoxo

P/S: newsflash, i am a fan of ning baizura now ever since i heard the song "Beribu Sesalan" recently, thanks to akmal ariff for intoducing me the song (a big fan of shila he is n a Malaysian artist in making~) n amer mudhamir (passionate in the arts of dancing, a pro-dancer to be, good luck boyy~) for helping me with finding others of ning baizura~

plan on saturday

tomorrow, an arts festival will be held at Padang Astaka, PJ
hell to the yeah imma be there~ XD
thus makes tomorrow's experience the first arts-related ride for me ;)
dayyum, like seriously, i couldnt wait any minute longer
haha btw, i bought the tix at Rock Corner, The Curve, pricing at 30 ringgits~ and the not so great news is, imma be there alone :P
well, i CAN be alone but im a freaking human being, i do prefer companies, especially as a noob in this kind of crowd~
so, any of you who ll be there, nudge me aite? hoho peace out!

abang askar menukar tayar :P

i was taught by my daddy how to change tires today XD
u see that small hot bod over there? yeah, that's me~
okay, now, lets get to our session :D


HOW TO CHANGE TIRES

ahah first of all, loosen up the to-be-changed-tire

next, use the "jack somethinggg" to lift ur car up until the tire isnt touching the ground :3

then take it off~ *that stupid tyre was damn heavy btw =,="

replace it with the spare tire, tighten the screws, remove that yellow thingy, n secure them screws~~ y know? so they wont fall off whilst driving :3 *i look freaking excited though in this pic :P
alright~ that is all i think :) ohh, n we went to a workshop to tampal the removed tire~ it is actually punctured by a stupid nail tho T__T
and replace the tampal-ed tire back~ spare tire stays being a spare part :33

sometimes..

sometimes life gets me unguarded
like things from last year, even when i was living in a new world, sometimes it was near to impossible for me to swallow it all
"is this true? im in freaking aussie?!!", ahah, something like that~
everyday i thought to myself, yesterday was the day i waved goodbye to my friends n families, well, those were last year's
today, back to msia, still, every now and then, luck is questioned
as example, what is happening to my family now
to call it a broken home, not really, but how could they make such decision then? whatevee~ BUT still.. haha im juz a boy lord~
plus, stuffs at school are getting fuckin stupid, well, i am at the brink of emotional disturbance, lol, but yeahh, with assignments and homeworks, wish i had three wishes,n i would use my first wish to have thousands more wishes,, hoooll yeah, amen to that!
hmm, has it ever hit you guys? like, life gets harder as things are at its worst.. well, i know trouble lingers around every breathing spirit, n they may be others out there who are in much more pain, some that have never been imagined by the little of me..
okay, cool off noww~ dayyum, why do i always drift so far as i talk/type/write?

wahid.dua.three (written in the stars)

saya bujang, so saya malas nak lap the mirror :P

way home from swimming pool <3 that's my cuzzo btw

with my systahh, abir balkis :*

yes, kami sama hodoh, sama tak senonoh

wait, dy lawa lahh! T_T

on bike with shahril azmi (banglad), hoyyeahhoyyeah~

*this entry takes me 3 days to get it doneee B) i am so sloww~


it is 12.22 am now, hence my mind isnt at its best performance =,=
warghhh~ im still having holiday fever atm
oyyeah, talking bout them holy days, mine was coolll~
went out everyday :D shopping, cinema-ing, prostituting, walkinggg, meeting, rolling on the floor laughing out loud, rolling in the deep by adele, eating, singing, dancing, drawing, sleepingg, etc-ing :33
basically, i enjoyed myself~ howeva, one of my bezzybuddo, ray went to saudi arabia during the second week so yeah, less fun there..
btw, he is still there though, while im typing nonsense now C:


school has juz started and i am "holidaystruck", still~
like, the only stuffs i could bare to do at school are drawing and eating =,= fyi, a few nearby humans have been calling me 'fatso' T_T y'all juz wait biatches, im on my diet regimen noww XP
BTW, things at school are gettin busy, im trying to finish up my arts folio b4 due date, LK course worksss, undone homeworksss, blahhblahhssss, GOD, i need moree holidayssssss
woww, im a freaking procrastinator =,=" S.O.S.

artsoo

juz had my visual arts exam today, starting with objective/theory first
gotta say, most of em was tembak-ed only =,="
sorryyyyyyyyy ceekkkgguuu XDDD
but yeah, actually my brain was freaking worried about the second paper, the practical one~
the question i chose was about fisherman, boats, birds, river's mouth, blablabla
and these are the horrible designs i did T__T

 

hell ugly ryte? ahhaaa

btw, i almost gave up on this question

but i guess sometimes in life, we would encounter hard times,

thinking that no solution could cure or change,

but yeah, i guess i still remember the vow i made to myself,

"no matter what happens, never give up on arts"

and the highlight was, i cried when i finished painting them.. HAHA =,= i knew i wasnt good/skilled enough to be the best of the best
feels kinda stupid though, crying over things like this

i dunno, whatever reason it was, it taught me to not give in

this is the one i did during the exam and me myself was shocked cuz based on my drafts or whatever u call em, they were disastrous T__T but please dun get me wrong, im not being snobbish or anything, depends on u to judge but yeah, my love is arts, so, peace out hotties~ ;)) pray for me to seize my dream as an artist one day~

could u see tears running down my face?

takrifkan cinta padaku lalu buktikannya,
namun jika rahsiamu itu tidak pasti,
perlahankan bicara perihal cinta,
kerana manakan hati sanggup berdarah,
selepas kepercayaan dipertaruh atas nama kasih dan mati..


hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha =,="
what if someone new, someone u hardly know of, n also, that particular someone knows nothing of you except your face said the word "love" and expected u to be on the journey as well?
well, to me personally, i would rather have one friend than hundreds of lovers n it hurts by thaaaaaatt much knowing that lust is the only reason why i am chosen to b a friend, n thus being asked to be a sell out? haha this bitch here doesnt think so ;3
conclusion, i am used to being called the bad guy in every relationship i had, but i have my reasons n perspectives that i know, no stranger would ever nod at, except if u re a total weirdo like me, then i'd say u would XD

i aint extravaganza, just another ordinary persona

think im gettin tired of people assuming i am this and that, without a confrontation even
so called; judgin a book by its cover, prejudging me as how they wanted to, blablablaa
the least u can do is ask me in the first place =,=
well, i do have histories of biting people when im angry but never did it involve blood or death..
*sighhh i will always feel insecure, uncomfortable, etc with myself if this kind of people always act out as gravity, never forget to pull us down by their words T__T curse youuuuuuuuuuuuuu
"we are beautiful, in every single way, no matter what they say, words can't bring us down" - christina maria aguilera <3

heartbeats

still in mid-year-exam mode now.. *sighhh
n lately, i would sometimes think what would it be like during the real deal, talking about SPM here~
n i ve heard this kind of phase, like you are thinking way deep about life and what would it lead u to, but yeahh
glad im having this now rather than at one point where some doors are already closed before me..........................
=,= what am i bullshaiting now actually? is this called stress perchance? whateva,, wish me luck hotties :)) wo aini~

miscellaneous

"Jiwa korang diumpamakan tapak pasar malam manakala kawan-kawan korang penjajanya. Sebelum diorang datang, jiwa korang terasa kosong dan hambar..


Jiwa korang diumpamakan tapak pasar malam manakala kawan-kawan korang penjajanya. Kawan baik pasti tinggalkan sesuatu setelah mereka tiada nanti.."


:DD i juz love the quotations above XD
got it from the comic UTOPIA HIGH *REUNION* by Slaium
in sarcastic way, he praises friendship :) hmm, now thinking of becoming a cartoonist~ howeva, everytime i draw the same character, everything changes - from hairstyle to shoes size to the storyline =,=  *mama, can i stay in malaysia for a lil bit longer? B))

effing lazy

i ve been nothing but a lazy arse these days =,=
orang bujang, biaselahh~ XD
hoho n this body of mine is getting cuter and cuter now..
sedihhh perangaii T__T
oh oh, actually, i ve registered as a member at celebrity fitness~
BUT it is in LOT 10.. have to take KTM, monorail n walk n walk n up until at the destination, i would have burnt every fat in muh sexy ass
come to think of it, i may just love the idea of working out, not working out itself though
gettin blurry? so do i :33
xoxo